This was Not what I meant
When I said, “I want to live”
All of my weaknesses restless within…
You take, you take, and you take while I give.
When I find myself staring
Down the barrel of a gun
Knowing that time of unknowing has come
Dilation
Fixation
Tormented fascination
Is this really how I’m going to die?
When the last thing I see is that look in your eyes
Murderous
Cowardice
Cross off another one on your list
But oh no, not me.
Even if this is the last moment I live
It’s this battle I’ve won and continue to win
And now I summon all of my courage within
As I find myself staring
Down the barrel of a gun
Go on, pull the trigger
The Battle’s begun.